So I first realized I was bisexual when I was around 14, I’m 19 now, but as I grew up, my father became even more bigoted than anyone else I’ve met. And I know I can’t come out to him, so I was just wondering, how you deal with the fact that a major part of your life might not be at your wedding or a pet if your life if you fall in love with someone of the same sex.
Try to comfort yourself with the fact that you’re not living for your father, you’re living for yourself. Your mixed feelings about him are 100% valid, but at the same time he doesn’t own you.
If he misses out on those beautiful events of your life, it’s his loss not yours. It’s hard to go against your family’s wishes but it’s even more suffocating not being yourself.
Hang in there.