is it bad that I sometimes wish I were a lesbian bc then I would have access to this rich history and culture that I don't have as a bisexual girl? I'm proud of being bi but it seems like there's no distinct bi culture like there is for lesbians
Bisexuals have a very distinct culture! A lot of it didn’t come to mainstream consciousness (i.e. The Straights didn’t bother to notice it) till the 90s, but it for sure existed prior to that! There’s been a plethora of scholarship on the culture and the nature of bisexuality. I’ll recommend you a few things if you want to explore it further:
Oscilliation: A Life-Stories Analysis of Women Who
by Irina Dimitriade
Plural Desires: Writing Bisexual Women’s Realities by Karyn Sandlos
This is all I have on hand right now (I’m a nerd who actually keeps lists of this stuff?) but I could definitely find you more if you wanted. There’s so much out there and you should be proud of your identity!